FOR A MOMENT

I can’t understand it. For years I fought hard for my ex husband to treat me with respect and to stop his adultery ways. With no luck at all , he eventually ended up leaving to be with one of the women he had been seeing for years.

Today, years later I find myself loving a man that is almost 10 x’s worse than my ex husband . Some may deem this situation way worse than that unsalvageable marriage. The only difference is I find myself defenseless towards his mannish ways and his seemingly openly cold heart.

Although the same confusion of not being embraced for the good woman I considered myself to be and the hurt was there. It was different, I wasn’t willing to fight for this person to do right by me. Did loneliness get the best of me at this point? Or did I now fall in line with the women who thought “a piece of man was better than no man”!.

I think I stop believing that the more you love something or someone the reward would be that it would love you back. Everyone isn’t capable of doing so. Did I give up on love all together? Maybe…but I decided not to punish myself for it. If you are honest with yourself you will see that everything is just for a moment…the less chance you will have in being lead astray.

Fairy tales teach us to believe in “Forever” . What has lasted forever? I’ll wait….This is where the apple turns sour and the dip stick sinks in!

Sincerely,

Sour Apples & Dip Sticks